Cubaan Yang Menjadi...

Diam tak diam, siap jugak my first round homemade tart cookies. Aku buat sendiri okeh! Alhamdulillah, seronok betul buat cookies nih. Aku nih takde la passion sesangat bila bab-bab buat kuih-muih nih sewaktu masa dulu. Cuma aku suka gitu-gitu jer kerja-kerja membuat kek or cookies nih. It just that dulu-dulu especially time nak raya entah kenapa, everytime aku buat kuih mesti tak berapa nak menjadi baik dari segi rasa apatah lagi rupa bentuknye. Ada yang penyet, senget, kecik besor saiznyer... sebabnya aku rasa masa tu aku buat dengan tak sepenuh hati. So, sebelum aku start with my tart cookies nih few days ago, I did feel that macam tak menjadik jer tart aku nih nanti..

Entah macamana, aku tetap jugak start buat tart nih. Iyerla, I need to keep myself busy atleast. Idak ler aku nih makan tido, makan tido jer keroje nyer...bak kata orang tu, adalah hasilnyer walaupun tak seberapa.

Dan tadaaa....

Well, aku happy & the most importantly I feel good & satisfied with what I've done. Aku rasa paling penting mesti ada bila kita nak buat sesuatu tu ialah yakin, fokus and enjoy with what you are doing. Mungkin pada uols tak seberapa, tapi to me.. what an achievement! hihih... I looiike!!

...and when Im no longer working...

Yes uols, I have not been working for the last 3 weeks.. In other words, aku dah berenti keroje, resigned! Its a long story and its really pissed me off. Aku ada buat entry pasal nih before and sorry uols aku tak reti macamana nak buat link of the previous entry kat sini (matila...buta IT kekdahnyer). Aku menjeruk rasa..matila jeruk apa tatau! I dont know what else to do. I dont even update pun kat sini. Takde mood langsung. But the only thing that i learn and i know is that 'Trust No One, Assume Nothing..' that is for sure!!

Aku feel horrible bila tak bekerja nih, coz im used to work after graduating. Tapi yang benornya aku dah biasa dapat gaji tetiap bulan..This is the risk that I have to face bila bekerja ngan company melayu yang tak berapa nak besar nih. And the decision maker pulak tu sekolah tak berapa tinggi lak tu..matilah, aku dulu pun sekolah 4 tingkat..pandai ker?? Bukan aku nak merendah-rendahkan orang kita nih. Tapi tu lah hakikatnya, dah tau diri tu tak berapa pandai, pandai-pandailah carik jalan nak bagi pandaikan diri sendirik...Ni tidak, main ikut cakap orang jer. Aku frust betul whenever I think that at one point of time I was very devoted and commited to my work. Tapi end up macam nih. I have no choice, and quitting from the job is the best choice left for me. Aku sedar that I have my bigger responsibilities as Im the eldest in the family. Mak aku lak just being medical boarded recently and my dad memang dah lama pencen. My youngest sister, Diba still doing her diploma course at one of the uni kat Johot nun. But mak ayah aku ok, they all support me all thru the way. At this point, bapak aku makin menguatkan lagi hujah dia yang kerja ngan kerajaan nih lagi selamat. Tu lah, dulu kemain lagi tak kerja ngan kerajaan. Well, to me mana-mana kerja pun nothing different. Its you, yourself could make the difference, betul tak?

Neway, life has to go on, kan? Aku update la jugak kat sini..kang ada lak mereka-mereka, adala dalam 2-3 kerat tu yang tak mengaku aku kawan lak sebab blog bersawang... so, im still hanging here as long as I can.. and im seriously, desperately looking for a job. Adalah jugak aku ushar-ushar kat jobstreet, ask my frens around kalo-kalo ada yang kosong for me.

So, sementara nak menunggu dapat kerja baru, aku sekarang tengah buat tart cookies which sebelum nih Diba penah buat during her semester break dulu, carik duit poket kekdahnyer. Boleh tahan ramai gak yang order. In fact, these people keep on asking bila nak buat lagi. Now I think its time for me to do it commercially, amacam??