and I think Im doing just fine...

After a while jugak I tak mengupdate kat sini ek… Well, too many things I need to take care now. Nak-nak lagi lepas Ayah takde ni lagi susah. Kalo dulu masa dia ada tak penah nak terpikir langsung benda-benda kecik macam bayar bil elektrik & air, cukai pintu & tanah laa, bayar duit ansuran kereta pun suruh dia bayar. Until his last days with us pun dia still pegi pasar as usual. Actually, routine pegi pasar ni memang keja dia sejak dulu lagi..not that we anak-anak dia nih tak amik berat pasal semua tuh tapi memandangkan ayah dah tak bekerja bak kata dia sekarang ni dah jadi ‘YB’ as in ‘Yang Bersara’. So, he took care lah all those things. Dialah jugak yang jadi peneman setia mak di rumah sepanjang mak tak boleh berjalan ni as she is now on wheelchair. Pegi hospital pun ayah yang teman & bawak..even dressing kaki mak pun he did too...

But now I think Im doing just fine after ayah has gone ( yet I am still could not believe it myself that ayah dah almost 4 months tak ada..) Apapun, life has to go on... mak pun macam dah ok sikit, eventho sometimes tu ada gak la dia tersebut-sebut pasal ayah..bila tang tu I jadik sedih and tak tau nak react macamana.

As for now, I hope I can be strong enough to live my life accordingly..dan diam tak diam gak dah almost a year I tak keja. But its ok, I guess..at least I boleh temankan mak kat rumah, nak keja balik pun dah malas. Sekarang ni Im helping mak jual satu produk kesihatan which quite good jugak. Even mak pun dah sihat after she tried this product...luka kat kaki dia pun dah nak bertaut after 2 years menunggu luka tu nak baikk..nantila sensenang nanti I will tell more about the product.

Di Manakan Ku Cari Ganti...

Salam, I tak tau nak bagitau macamana tapi I am still not in the mood of updating this blog. Just drop by to inform to all my dearest blogger friends ( kalo ada laa...) that my dad has passed away last 27th March 2008. I really tengah blurred dengan pemergian ayah yang tersayang sebab dia tidak sakit terlantar in fact he was healthy during the day..tapi Allah Maha Mengetahui & Penyayang, my dad pergi dengan senang sekali. I just cant control myself now, semua benda yg I pandang semuanya teringat kat dia.. and I just know that I need to be strong for the sake of my sick mother...

Ayah, semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas rohmu..dan ditempatkan di kalangan orang-orang yang beriman. Al-Fatihah.....

Really miss him......

Pictures of DANIA UMAIRA..

Dania Ummaira - 1 month old..

2 months old..

Most of the weekdays I will babysit si kenit tapi tembam nih..I dont mind coz hari-hari I boleh cium dia sepuas-puasnya. Geram...nengok pipi tembam gebu dia tu.! Now she is 4 months old, tapi dah macam 6-7 bulan jer rupa dia. She is my gebu lagi tembam niece..love her! She is adorable and sooo cuutee..tomorrow I will babysit her again, best. Jaga dia pun senang tak susah mana pun. She will only cries when she is hungry and want to sleep. Well, at least I did sumthing at home rather than melepak watching TV..

Long Holiday Yang Memboringkan...

Apa yang I dok buat sepanjang cuti raya cina nih?...nothing! Sampai I dah naik muak nengok muka all my sisters kat rumah ni. Cuti panjang macam nih, all my sisters balik la dari tempat jin bertendang dorang tuh. Mak I dah sound suruh I masak lak time cuti panjang nih, alamak..lagila i malas. Apa nak jadila ngan aku nih. Jangan tanya kenapa coz I sendiri memang la suka bermalas-malasan kat rumah. .Heaven!

So, cukup la ngan bermalasan tuh..sudah-sudahla. Patutla "badan pun dah macam ikan paus terdampar kat tepi pantai" sound bapak I. Nak buat macamana kan bila orang tua tu keluar gi kedai, balik umah aku terbaring kat sofa, dia keluar lagik gi surau n balik dari surau aku dah terdampar kat depan TV. Tadi my 3rd sister ajak gi beli pokok bunga kat sungai buluh. Okla, bolehla layan kejap bawak dia gi beli pokok-pokok. She is the only one in the family selain dari mak I yang minat sikit la ngan pokok-pokok ni. Adala sikit konsep keceriaan kat kawasan rumah nih. Ni I tengok pokok-pokok kat rumah I nih dah teruk sangat dah. Tak berjaga..kalau adapun maid mak I la rajin nak siram. Tu pun bila dia teringatlaa...kalo tak, haraaamm tak bersiram pokok-pokok tuh!

Pokok-pokok yang I beli kat nursery di Sg. Buloh...taktau la sempat idup ke tak pokok-pokok ni bila aku jaga nanti...


Yang ni memang dah lama ada tapi baru-baru ni jer elok berjaga, ada la yang rajin menyiramnya kalo tak lain dan tak bukan maid mak I...

On the other story lak, last week I terjumpa ngan member lama time study dulu. Orang tetap sama size badan pun maintain. Tapi satu jer yang I rasa dia nampak lain, nampak berubah. Errmm...nantilah, kalo rajin I carik picture dia dolu-dolu ketika we ols muda remaja. But now his look totally different just becoz rambut kat tang dahi depan tu tak brapa nak ada. Thats why the looks totally changed..to my old friends yang penah kenal ngan mamat nih, cer korang tengok muka si Sany nih...lainkan??

Sany, lain benor rupa ko. Tapi macamana lain pun aku tetap perasan yang tu ko...

Masih tak Terlambat....

It's 2am in the morning and it is raining heavily now. Here I am dok ngadap laptop. Mata still tak ngantuk, tak tau la pukul brapa I nak tido kang..I have been sleeping tremendously late semenjak 2 menjak ni. I dont know why.. but I guess it must be the trend I have rite now, that is tido lambat and then the next day bangun tengahari. Isk..iskk..anak sapa la ni, bangun tengah-tengahari...
My mom cant say anything about my sleeping trend nih...bising dia kejap jer. Lepas tu dia dah boring asyik nak berleter benda yang sama jer tiap-tiap hari, last-last terus dah tak terkata. Well, that is my routine for almost everyday. Bangun tido, eat breakfast (dah tengahari dah pun selalunya) and then I'll go to look after my two nieces while mom & the helper cook for lunch. Sambil tengok-tengokkan budak-budak kecik tu, I watch tv. Semua programme kat tv I tengok. Paling I suke sekalliik..channel 703-AFC..hehehe..best tul la yang tu.
Lepas dah letih nengok tv, I tido. Budak-budak tu kadang-kadang blom tido lagi, tapi I tettaap tido, takde la lama pun, dalam half hour gitu. Mana boleh tido lama kalo bebudak 2 ekor tu terjerit pekik. That is basically keja I tetiap hari, kalo takde plan nak merambu memana la. Kalo dah boring sangat, I just go to any mall sensorang mencuci mata and refresh my otak yang dah nak berkarat due to terperuk lama kat rumah. Selalunya I will go to SACC mall coz itu yg paling dekat ngan rumah or Sunway Pyramid, yang jauh sikit jer from my house.
And it has also been awhile for me being jobless. Bukan tak carik, but nowadays jobs are hard to get one. Dah naik letih pegi interview sana sini siti situ..lastly, takde yang sangkut. I dunno what when wrong. Its either Im overqualified, underqualified or Im asking for a high salary expectation. But I dont think it is bcoz of overqualified or the other way round. They must have gone thru my resume before setting up the interview session, kan..ntahla, I really dont have the clue.
Enough about that, I think it is not too late for me to wish 'Happy Belated New Year', kan? Itulah, malas sangat nak update. Actually, there are a lot of things happened during Dec, but I just dunno how to write it here. I will try to do it more often this time, not a promise but I wil try my best.... (boleh caya ke tuh?...)