Jiwa Kacau...

Entah apa yang kacau, aku pun pening gak nak memikirkan. Blog ni pun dah berkurun aku tak update. Bukan takde masa, tapi malas!! yang aku dok rajin ialah bertandang kat blog2 orang lain..berjam2 aku dok bertenggek. Tapi blog sendiri tak berhapdate. Lantak ler... aku pun bukannye reti sangat nak menulis/bercerita kat sini..

Lately, Im having the biggest problem with my work. Maybe that is also one of the reason aku takde mood nak update blog ku iniew. Tu la kenkadang bila dah lama sgt keja and we sumtimes get too complacent (betul ke eja, aku pun tatau..!) with the current situation. Without us realising it, things has become worse. Nak2 pulak bila we can't accept other's opinion..*matila ingat dah besar kepala..! Well, I do admit that whatever happened is my fault too but..there are also matters that they cant blame on me 100%!!

Tu lah bila kerja ngan company mcam ni, byk benda yang tak pasti. Especially when your job is marketing field. Lagi la macam2 benda tak secure.. Like myself, I've been doing marketing since day 1 I joined the company. I started as junior marketing exec, assisting my superior with her marketing works and what not. I think not only marketing, customer service, clerical & admin works pun aku buat. Multitasking kaedahnye...Kerja penuh ngan rasa ikhlas, takde masa nak pikir pasal org lain, nak nyucuk2 org..almaklum la, masa tu staff tak ramai. But we managed to get big2 contracts with big2 companies. Sapa tak happy masa tu, it was only me & my bos. That point of time, my BIG boss sayang abih kat aku. Just imagine within 1 & half years sajer aku dah merasa 3 kali increments. Bukan sikit2 lak tu naik gaji...Alhamdulillah!

Then, bila dah byk job dapat maka bertambah keperluan company esp. in hr & staffing. So, ramai lah kutu2 yang joined company lepas tu. Kalo u ols nak tau, my company - mainly in marketing dpt sumernya female! U ols paham2 la kalo dah semua nyer pompuan, perangai pun macam2 laa..actually, yang hati busuk tu adala sorang dua. Tapi sebab dia nih pangkat besor jadi org lain takleh nak cakap lelebih laa...main ngikut jer. Bodek jgn kata la, kadang2 nak naik menyampah aku nengok...

So now, aku memang dah takde momentum lagi nak work for this company. Aku selalu imagine that I will stay with this company sampai mati. Nampak gayanye, aku tak rela nak bermati-matian keja for this company. Things has become complicated and aku dah terluka with my BIG boss. Aku nak citer kat sini pun takde mood. What I have done all this time means nothing to him. Infact, org lain lak yang dia sanjung. Im not asking for that but value la I sikit. Im seriously looking for any better job offers....seriuos!